Gazing At The Moon

     She was getting ready to go out for the first time in months. Her jeans were new, her sweater was her favourite, & for once she attempted to do her hair. She felt as if everything was finally coming together. As she was putting on her shoes, the horn honked. Her friends were waiting for her in the driveway.

     "Hey! Nice to see you getting out that house!" greeted her friend, Phoebe.

     "Mhm." with a simple smile, she slipped a stray hair behind her ear & got into the passenger seat. There was a couple more people in the back, but she didn't pay attention to them. She seemed to be lost in her own world. 

     "So, where are we going?" asked one person from the back seat.

     "I don't know, let's have Alyssa choose" replied Phoebe, "Alyssa?"

     "Huh? What?" they had interrupted her thoughts again. It was probably a good thing, the memories were coming back, haunting her. 

     "Where do you want to go?" Phoebe asked again.

     "Oh, umm, I guess the park?" Alyssa really wasn't interested on the destination, she just wanted to be out of her house for once. 

     "Why don't we take a trip up to Awaken Forest?" another person piped up from the back.

     "Alyssa? Are you cool with that?" Phoebe took one hand off the steering wheel & touched Alyssa on the arm. It seemed to startle her because she jumped up & returned to down to Earth.
     "Yeah, sure." she replied & turned back to the window.
     They made it through the bumpy hills & settled on the campsite. Phoebe was talking to the rest of the crew when Alyssa slipped away & went for a walk. When Phoebe noticed Alyssa was gone, it was already dark. They had to get flashlights from the trunk & split up.
     A few minutes later Phoebe found Alyssa sitting at the top of a hill gazing at the moon. She walked up to her slowly & sat next to her.
     "Hey, what's up with you? First day leaving your house in so long & you keep wondering off." Phoebe said cautiously.
     "My mom died."
     Phoebe didn't know what to say. She simply looked up at the stars & slipped her hand into Alyssa's to let her know things where going to be okay.
     Alyssa rested her head on Phoebe's shoulder, silently sobbing. Phoebe felt a tear & hugged Alyssa.
     "It's going to be okay. She's in a better place now. Whatever it was, at least she can be happy."
     "You don't understand. My father killed her! Right in front of me!" Alyssa's tears began to flow furiously out her eyes as she continued to tell her story, "He was hopped up in drugs again, lost control & stabbed  her! I didn't know what else to do. I grabbed a vase & smashed it on his head . . .my neighbor heard the noise, called the cops. All they saw was two adults on the floor & me standing over their bodies. They took me away to a mental hospital. The test results were against me. . .They gave me this weird kind of medication that made me lose myself. Left me like a zombie. . . ."
     "There, there, it's okay. You didn't know what else to do. I'm here for you, always. Who are you staying with?"
     "Just myself. The bank sent an eviction notice, so I'll be going away soon. Have no place to go, no family to turn to."
     "You do have a place to go," Phoebe said with a smiley, "You can stay with me. As long as you want, if one day you wish to leave, it's your choice, but remember, you can always come back."
     Alyssa started sobbing again, not of sadness, not of anger, but because she was surprised that someone saw a value in her. She didn't feel so alone anymore. It was the best she felt in months. Both girls stayed on the hill, looking up at the sky. Soon their eyes got heavy & without knowing, they fell asleep.

-A few years later-

     Alyssa went in for an interview & ended up getting a job at an animal shelter. She stopped using the medication her doctor prescribed because her depression had gone away. Phoebe was still her roommate & they grew closer together. They were both college graduates. Phoebe was happy that Alyssa found happiness & everyday that every morning, she heard Alyssa's footsteps in the kitchen. She decided to stay &  Phoebe couldn't be happier. Her friend was safe & happy, living her life without the haunting of her past. All she needed was a friend, someone to talk to. Alyssa was finally happy.

Deal With It.

     The origin of Saint Valentine has many stories, anything from dark, grotesque pasts to the "sweet & romantic" holiday it is today. One story says that Valentine was somewhat a hero. He attempted to help Catholics escape Roman prisons. Obviously, the Romans did not like this idea of his & soon, Valentine ended up in prison & eventually killed. While Valentine was in prison, he sent the first "valentine greeting" to a young woman who he fell in love with. He signed it with the famous expression, "From your Valentine". As it was said before, the background to this holiday is not pin point.
     Valentine's Day can be the best holiday in the world. It can open up new opportunities, give you the extra boost to go after what you want. It can also be that one holiday you detest, yes, I'm talking to all you fellow Forever Alone's. To be honest, it all depends on what you do with it. You can choose to look at it as any other day & go on with your life. If you are in a relationship, appreciate it, there's always someone out there who wish they had a special someone. Relationships aren't always easy either. It comes with pain, happiness, stress, tears, joy, romance, & plain ol' "love". Relationships are like farts, if you have to force it, then it's probably poop (was not going to use the "s" word, ha). Going through all those tough patches can change you for the better or for the worst. It's all on what you let it do to you. Take the easy way out & let it bring you down, give up. Or take the difficult way & actually work on making yourself happy again. It's a part of growing up. Yes, this probably does not make sense, I am rambling. Good day to you all!

[grammatical errors may occur, enjoy]  

Toasted toast is toasted.

MONDAY [misunderstood]
     I am as misunderstood as a squirrel doing scientific research under the deep blue sea. I do not wish to harm you. I do not wish to make you mad. I want you to see me & think "Thank you, Monday. You are my fresh start." This doesn't happen, of course. Everyone just wants to get rid of me. I'm that kid in the back of your class that gets picked on & everyone hates. I have feelings too. You may not realize it, but just like that quiet kid, I made a difference in your life in some way. I have had people celebrate their birthday's with me, mourn a death of a significant other, family memeber, someone important, there are amazing memories created with me, sad memories you wish to forget, the best days of your life can happen when I'm around too. You don't notice I am always there for you. You always want me to go away. One thing you should know, if it isn't obvious enough, I will always be there to greet the sun that shines through your window & lets you wake up & live another day.


TUESDAY [nonchalant]
     Hey, I'm just here, you know? You need me to get over Monday. I can be your little therapy day. Still not what you want, but I'm here for you. You have to get through me. Think of me as your fridge; I am always there to brighten up your day, I can make you happy because you received what you wanted or disappointed because nothing went as plan, but I am always there for you. That reliable friend you don't talk to unless you have a problem. . .yeah that's me. I do not mind, it's ehh.


WEDNESDAY [ignored]
     You know who I am, I know who you are. We know we're here, sense it all the time. We do not acknowledge each other. I do not know why. All you care about is that it's the middle of the week & you want your break. By the time you get to me, you're slacking off, not caring. All of you are the same, not caring about how that makes me feel. Being ignored all the time. . .You don't know what I go through to ensure that all of you are happy. Not one "Thank you", nothing. You just pass by me like you pass by roadkill.


THURSDAY [troll]
     Haha, you want it to be Friday already. Well guess what? It isn't & you have to deal with me for 24 hours. Tick. . .Tock. . .Tick. . .Tock, time will go slow. You will get lazier today. I will be here, laughing at you, how you want me to go away already. Don't worry, make the best of it & maybe, just maybe, I'll be nice to you & have time go back to normal. Keyword here is "Maybe". Haha, this is fun, having you sit in class, watching the clock, waiting for the final bell to ring. Enjoy your day!


FRIDAY [conceited]
     YEAH! I'm finally here! I can make everyone happy just by having someone say my name! Everyone wants me here, you all need me here in order to be happy At this point, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, & Thursday are out of sight & out of mind. All you're thinking about is how much you waited for me to come. All you do with me is chill, lay back & relax. All the worries are gone & you're either preparing yourself for a good weekend or adding hours to your interweb time. All the plans are made for me, by me, with me, you love me, you need me.


SATURDAY [chill]
     You make plans with me, you have the whole day to yourself. You can sleep over for as long as you want, stay up as late as you want, & visit the interwebs as long as you want. You can have fun with me if you choose to. I will fun with anyone, anytime. I make you smile & hopefully you create wonderful memories with me. You love me & I love you, we're those friends who can't wait to see each other.


SUNDAY [indifferent] 
     You all detest me almost as much as Monday. I end your "fun", "ruin" your weekend. You do not like the sight of my name, you wish I would just go away. I do not care. You have to live through me, just like you live through everyone else. I can bring you down in less than a second by reminding you you have homework, having to go to bed early, setting your alarm for early morning, & having to go live through everything all over again. Hope you enjoyed the show, one man play starring you.